Tonight devin and i had a super yummy meal planned that is one of our all time favorites, cilantro lime grilled fish tacos. Seriously they have the power to turn a strictly land goer beg for seconds! So anyways, fish doesn't need to marinate for very long, like 30-45 mins at the most. So devin got home from work and i started getting out the ingrediants to make the marinade, i was going to make/eat dinner then go to the gym. Then devin brings it to my attention that this marinade is one that needs to be made at least 24 hours in advance to let the flavors meld before putting it on the fish. DINNER FAIL! now sure, we could very easily have scrambled to find something else to do with the fish but after you are anticipating that delicious combination, plain grilled fish isn't too appealing, especially after just having lemon pepper fish the night before. So i start to get cranky, im hungry we can't figure anything out, and we are out of almond milk and berries. So i cancel my gym plans, and we go to the grocery store, and were going to pick up some mexican food on the way home. Because a big melty beany cheesy burrito from favelas or jalisco sounded delicious. As we are getting out of the car at the grocery store i mention to devin, ya know we could just get a healthier freezer meal for dinner while we are here instead of picking up mexican. He didn't seem overwhelmed with excitement over that idea. So we get our groceries and as im sitting there cranky i start thinking about how yummy that burrito would taste right now. But thats it, only right now. Because i know that after i took those bites and the burrito was gone that satisfaction would be gone, and i would be sad, even more cranky, and even more pissed if i gained weight the next day and was swimming in a pool of guilt. So i had a choice, a choice that we have every day, are we going to eat healthy and work towards the goal, or give in to food temptation and overinduldge? So i go down the freezer aisle and look over the healthy choice options, grab a couple for a little variety to add to my normal lunch routine, and then devin walks up with a DiGionor pizza and says that he is going to get that and share it with the boys and i looked at it and thought about how much i really do like pizza and how it would be quick and easy and no mess. And i took a deep breath looked down at my thighs and love handles ( which are both getting a little smaller might i add ;) ) and turned back to the freezer and grabbed a healthy choice meal. It was not easy. Espically smelling the pizza as my food was heating up, but i felt so empowered and happy with my choice and wasn't at ALL sad about not eating the pizza, it looked gross, and packed with a ton of nasty stuff that my body didn't want or need.
For me this was eye opening moment for me. I realized i truly am doing this for me. And i think that is pivotal to longevity with weight loss and any goal for that matter. If i wasn't doing this for me, and doing it solely so my husband might think im sexy, or a hundred other reasons, i probably would have followed along with my healthy eating partner and ate that frozen pizza. But i didn't i looked temptation in the face and said piss off pizza! Learning to take control of my diet, learn to love food that loves me back, and treating my body right has given me such new confidence because now food doesn't control me
